First Week at Kubang Kerian.

First Week at Kubang Kerian.

Hi and Assalammualaikum dearest. How are you feeling today? Hope you able to find ease while reading another chronicle of my life. It’s nothing much but an experience of staying in Kelantan for about one week? More or less. And what am I doing here…. is actually because of the campus-calling, lol. It’s been like one plus year I started my degree, and not to mention, as online student at home. But the time has come now. Being at campus taught me two three things and I realize how important it is to appreciate each of the lessons here.

But first of all, I never knew the journey to Perak-Kelantan was that exhausted. East-west highway that provided is not highway that I’ve imagined. It’s so dizzy, tiring and exciting (over the fact that it was my first time, lol!) and honestly, it reminded me over the journey to Cameron Highland, which I hate but alhamdulillah, we safely arrived after 6 hours. Prior ahead the registration date, we were staying at Sarah’s house for few days. Sarah was my childhood friend, back then at Melaka. We grew up together, trying stupid things that you can think of for girls till she had to move to Kelantan. It’s fascinating how we were able to meet again after 7 years. Shameless plug but I cherish her with all my heart. If there’s one thing I can describe her, it is.. strong. And her mum’s cooking..? Chef kiss. That flashback when her mum always sent food to our home… I miss that. Bless.

Back to campus life, Alhamdulillah, I think it’s all good? No drama to be concerned at yet since it just first week except on how I deal with my own behavior and actions here ahaha. My roommates are good people. My PBL mates are too. I also did interact with my batchmates as well during practical session and basically, new faces that entering my life is added continuously here. Being a shy person, it’s quite hard honestly. Two of the girls in my PBL are people that are very friendly with everyone. Every time I am with them, people would recognize them and I feel so small in term of that ahahah. There is nothing wrong with them. In fact, I write this blog post in order to ensure myself that there is nothing wrong with me too. So Ariena, listen.

It’s okay to feel shy. You are at new place, you are with new people. It’s okay to feel like that.

I know it takes time for me to break the wall and openly express my feelings but over all things, the most important thing is to be true at least toward myself. I completely aware that I would like to get out from my own comfort zone in term of social life. However, it cannot be done in a day. So ariena, calm down. I want to avoid the insecure term because it seems negative to say to my own self, and I think I am not insecure, lol. I just feel shy, that’s it. I know my own strength. I am doing great and it is okay if it takes time. People are not mean, and the time will come, for me to find my circle I guess. In Shaa Allah.

That’s it for now. The purpose to write the post is achieved. I think validating my feelings through writing bring so much compassion to myself. Good, good. Hehe. Bye!

Books no longer bring joy.

Books no longer bring joy.  

Assalammualaikum everyone. Hope this post finds you, healthy physically and mentally. Ameen. 

Coming here again after a while because I'm having holiday break currently. I've been planning to update since day one of the holiday but, this girl just do not know when to begin, specifically. Now that I feel like my days seem colorless, I decided to read other people blog and get inspired to write one ahaha. Just a quick and short life update, I guess?

I think I have contact some of my friends during this break and repeated the same thing over and over again regards my life update so I want to skip the formality and tell you the other pieces of my life story. Perhaps, the thing that I do not like people around me get to know about this but this open public post do not mind me? Lol. Yes, you read the title of this post right.

I find it's hard for me to read these days. All the books seems dull and I always sleep at the end of second flip page or I just do not understand what the author's idea.  It frustrating how I always say " Oh, things that keep me happy is reading book. " back then, but now I can no longer feel the same thing anymore. Despite having second thought of buying new books, (realizing the books at home not able to bring joy anymore), I wonder how far the truth is. 

The only thing that make me happy these days are listening to other people story and how they've been at lately. Especially my close friends. T just texted me yesterday. S also sent me mails last week. I'm happy to see my friends happy. Or at least the fact that we are still caring for each other. I wish I can see them whenever I want but Malaysia is too big to go here and there freely I guess. I have no friends at my place right now since I moved away from Melaka so it's quite lonely at some points. Especially during holidays now, more free time is available but the girl does not know how to do self-healing properly. It's time to pick up new hobbies while trying to make amends with my books relationship in between. What would that be..?

ps: i am also happy reading blog entries. i guess i am very interested in knowing people stories ahaha. what is your favourite blogger so perhaps i could read too? 

Words of the year 2022.

Words of the year 2022.

Hi and assalammualaikum dear self. It's been a long time you wrote.. Do you neglect your wild thoughts by intent and choose to ignore? Oh, I wish you have make your time to write. I know that everyday is constants play button instead of the option for pause button... but trust me, you (in the future) will definitely appreciate if you (today) write more. But.. That's okay.

 

If 'purpose' was word of the year that you (in the past) have personally chose for 2021, I would advise you to choose two words for this year, which are ketenangan dan kesederhanaan. I can't help but to choose two and they are in bahasa since it sounds more classic. Lately, I've been obsessed with subscription mail by JIWA. It calls, Surat Jiwa, buat Kamu. I fall in love everytime I read the letter that come to light my day. I wish it would be a trend again to send surat and all that.

 

Ketenangan. Yes, I hope by the end of 2022, you could appreciate ketenangan more. You've been too anxious these days, silly. You've been concerned too much. You've been worried too much. Being such doesn't really help you to progress.. Instead, you are being trapped, with your own world. Yes, I did not invalidate your feelings, like at all, but that is unhealthy feeling if it is constant one go feeling without break. What are you worry for? What are you anxious for?

 

Tenang. Semuanya, akan berlalu. Semuanya akan baik-baik sahaja. Semua ini akan berakhir. Dan kau akan berjumpa penghujung dan akhirnya kembali dengan dunia yang lebih indah, yang tiada penghujung. Aku tidak menyalahi diri engkau untuk merasakan semua itu. Jadi, hiduplah secara besederhana. Jangan lelah. Jangan gentar. Kehidupan, beginilah. Walau acap kali kau merasakan, engkau tidak mampu menanggung perasaan ini seorang diri, ingatlah bahwa kau memiliki tuhan yang sentiasa berada di sisi engkau. Jangan bersedih selalu, senyum dan teruskan perjuanganmu, kerna aku sentiasa bangga padamu. Terima kasih untuk segalanya, wahai diriku.

 

Selamat ulang tahun, salam dua dekad.

 

UPU Result.

UPU result.

(Diary entry)

Receiving news that I got accepted into medical school was a really a-weird-mix-feeling one. Of course, it is beyond my own expectation but still, syukur Alhamdulillah upon the chance that Allah S.W.T gives. This is maybe prior of a convince feeling of mine that I won't be accepted, after finishing all the interview sessions last month. (Look how small my thoughts are compared to what Allah has decided for me.)

I remember I finished my interview-weeks first and just then, Bahagian Kemasukan Pelajar IPTA (UPU) opened its Fasa Pengemaskinian & Fasa Permohonan Baharu. So, we have been given a kinda 'second chance' to update our course list, except the one that we have been interviewed with. By that time, I would like to say that I changed the list with updated mind & new purpose for the nth time.

I told myself, " Okay so if being a doctor is not for me, I might consider this and this. This will be less stressing anyway. I think I can do this and this course. "

That was my mindset back then. Plus there is special du'a that 'following' me, these few months too.

" O Allah, indeed, You know me very well. Here, I seek guidance from You, to show me a right path for me, specifically in which journey should I head to regarding my studies after this Ya Allah. You are All Knowing, You are All Hearing. If medical field is really for me, make it ease Ya Allah. If this field can lead me to become a better person, who can contribute something for my own self, for my own country and yakni for Islam, give me a chance to become one, Ya Allah. But if this is not for me, show me which suit me the most Ya Allah. "

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After getting UPU result, that was where I began felt confused (vague but not ungrateful.) I don't know is this the answer that I am searching for… because it could be that Allah SWT answering my du'a soon, not now or maybe He will grant me in the future, or even more at hereafter. That’s what I thought again. “Is getting accepted to medical school is really the answer of my du'a?” I am happy yet overwhelming because of this matter, considering how overthinking I always be, all the time. However, I embraced the thought of "If he doesn’t think I can't do it, then He won't give. But the thing here, Allah SWT gives. And He gives perhaps because He knows I can do it."

Because of that, I started to build up my confidence again. “Chin up and think straight. Yakeen with the decision given by Allah SWT and rethink back, the purpose of you, want to become a doctor.”

It's a huge title and becoming one does bring a heavy responsibility. I might say I am not that confident, but I guess this is a test from Allah SWT too because everything happened in this dunya is a form of test, & every test have its own khayr (goodness) that I should ponder upon it. Indeed, everything revolves around us, Allah SWT has brought His bounty rahmah & hikmah too.

I understand that my heart, is having a hard time regarding this (the act of accepting my flaws and accepting my feeling as human-being) but I believe again, that He will guide me along the way if I constantly purify my heart and niyyah, insyaAllah.

What awe me more is that today, I happened to read a story of Prophet Musa A.S who get to meet Allah SWT. (Referring to Suratul Al-Qasas, ayaah number 30 till 35.) When Allah SWT asks him to go and see Pharaoh with credentials (mukjizat) that given to him, Nabi Musa A.S is concern (and fear) over some things. He immediately seeks help yakni du’a to Allah SWT regards that and because of his sincere plead, Allah SWT grant his du’a right away (where Allah SWT strengthen his arm through his brother, Prophet Harun A.S and grant them both supremacies so that bad people will not reach them.)

And I guess that is how I understand my heart and start to learn mending it. Ultimately, indeed the goal is to obtain a Qalbun Saleem (a sound heart.)

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Semoga Ariena dapat menghabiskan pengajiannya sebagai pelajar perubatan selama 5 tahun (+2 housemanship years) dengan sukses, dan seterusnya menjadi seorang doktor yang berakhlak mulia. Ameen.

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Crucial first step of understanding my heart is inspired prior reading Light For  The Lost Soul by MizzNina. May Allah grant her greatest abundance, as many as benefits that people get, coming from this book. Ameen.

Online Medical Interview 2021 - Doktor Perubatan

Online Medical Interview 2021 - Doktor Perubatan👀

Hi and Salam~! Praying everyone are in best condition, both physical and mental ya, amin.

Today I would like to share my experience, during last online interviews for my degree. I got offered from three local universities to be interviewed and the results will probably come out around mid September, 2021. I did prepared a lot in between, preparation wise like reading some articles related. Happy to say that some of the target questions came out but in fact, it doesn't help that much either because it was totally nerve wrecking from the beginning you were asked to introduce yourself ahahah.

The first one is from Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM)

After getting result of my application, I was required to fill out my information ( certificates related ) through Google form within a period they have decided. They also asked me to create and send a resume video where I need to introduce myself, why I choose medicine and why UKM.  Then, another week passed and I was required to undergo synchronous video interview, using Zoom. The funny part was, I am not very familiar with Zoom because when I was at Matriculation, we were constantly using Google Meet and thus, using Zoom was indeed hard for me lolol. Here are the questions that were asked by two panel interviewer ( man and woman ) around 15 minutes.

1. Your neighbor conceal the fact that he is a close contact of COVID-19 patient. Is it the right thing to do? Should the head of villager list down the names of those who are close contact with COVID-19 patient and tell everyone in the village?

2. As a medic student, you need to inject a patient but then you failed to do so,10 times. Your professor were mad and scolded you at that moment. Do you think it is appropriate? How you will deal with the situations, both clinical and your emotion?

That's it and I would love to remind you that the first question is in Bahasa and the second one was in English. PLUS, when I was interviewed with those questions, they did asked like tricky sub-questions to me. For example,

1. Don't you think it would invade people privacy if you say the head of village should list down the names or in oppose, what about the rights of people who need to know that their neighbours are close contact person?

2. If in your own case, how many failed trials that will make you to correct yourself? Is it 10 times like the situations? Or the moment you failed to do the first inject-- you would give up right away? 

I also got offered from Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM)

To be honest, I forgot what the first-two steps USM asked before got into video call interview so let just skip that part haha. I think... nothing much, it just I was required to fill out my contact details because later on, I was added into WhatsApp group for my session. USM used Cisco Webex for the interview and again, the day I was being interviewed, I had problem with my microphone. Till today, I don't know why it was not connected to my laptop but luckily they asked me to do video call through WhatsApp instead. Thanks to that, it was less nervous because for me it seems like a bit non-formal, using a handphone. The questions are,

1.  Introduce yourself. 

( when I said my hobby is reading, they asked me who is my favorite author. they asked me in Malay and it is very ridiculous because I've been practicing using English for my " introduce yourself " question hahah. It really depends to the interviewer nonetheless )

2. Your thoughts on those who are anti-vaccine. How you cope it if your family members are anti-vaccine. 

3. Your thoughts about contract doctors.

4. You saw your friend always being isolated alone at class. When you asked her, she told you that she is suffering from sexual abuse at home. Her mum decided to not make it big. What do you think?

Actually... they did asked MORE than I thought because from one big topic, they asked this and that. What you will do, how you're going to help, what and what and endless what. I felt like the time did run slow at the moment lol. The female doctor who interviewed me was quite scary too TT

and the last one was from Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM)

I was required to do an essay and short video during the preliminary stage. The questions are,

1. Essay : Your neighbour is a retired teacher aged 71 years old who lives with her son who has autism. She had an appointment to receive her first dose of Covid-19 vaccine last week; however she refused to be vaccinated. She believes that her son’s symptoms of autism were observed after he was vaccinated when he was young. She also advised her neighbourhood friends not to take the vaccine as reports were shown the vaccine may cause death. She believes that washing hands and wearing mask are sufficient to prevent from Covid-19 infection.

As a future medical practitioner, identify the main issue and discuss critically about this issue.

2. Video : Sebuah organisasi bukan kerajaan telah membuat strategi untuk menyediakan pelindung bayi (baby hatches) di seluruh negara di mana ibu atau orang lain dapat menyerahkan bayi mereka secara tidak diketahui. Apa pendapat anda mengenai amalan ini?

After few days, UPM shortlisted those who are accepted but I failed to be one of their candidates.

I guess that's all from me. I did learned a lot though alhamdulillah and I hope it bring insight to you. I've been enjoying reading a book lately by Ustaz Hasrizal called Erti Beragama Yang Hilang. How about you? What are you doing these days? Thank you for reading. Bye and Salam~!

The Art Of Letting God

THE ART OF LETTING GOD

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Hi and Assalammualaikum everyone. How are you guys doing? May Allah shower you with His great bless, in the name of Ar-Rahman and wash away your worries that troubles you lately. ( ps:// the du'a is inspired with cold weather that come this morning, thanks to the rain yesterday, Alhamdulillah. )

Recently, I've been reading "The Art Of Letting God" written by Mizi Wahid. I knew that this book got recommended a lot and that was why I took the initiative to ask my brother, to buy Ustaz Mizi's books for my birthday, last March. When he was willingly agree at WhatsApp, you don't know how excited I were. I giggled all day and maybe my roommates were annoyed at me tehee. ( I always favor anyone who buy or give me books. It's like you pass on a story for me to reflect and ponder of. The little happiness that rarely comes because you know how expensive books are for me. )

Although it was purchased last March, I were at the college that time and the books were delivered to my hometown. The fact that it is July and I just half-way reading it, make me think " Huhhh, book lover konon? " hahaha but trust me, I am ( or would say, try to be! ) I just find it is quite hard to read non-fiction book and the good timing just doesn't come! Right after I finished my studies too, I've been spending my times with other pending books as well. It turns out, okay June-July is for me to read time to time, solely for this book. The Art Of Letting God.

Just like how it is described at the synopsis of back hard cover, it is about how you letting go and letting God. More like for you to know on how to move on and how beautiful Allah has put the situation for you to deal it. At this current moment, I do not have any grudge to let go, so I feel like it is not the right time to read.. it's like " Hm, I'm doing good.. so I do not need the book right now. " ( lol, look how foolish I am! ) but then, I can see a lot of people having a hard time so at least, by reading this book, I could remind myself how to overcome problems in the future more rational and learn to put myself in other shoes frequently. " There's always nothing wrong at the book, it just how you take it, Ariena. "

Last few weeks, my friend whom I named as S, spoke up about her recent concern, dealing with her close friends circle but pandemic made her to think that their friendship is no longer the way it used to be. As far as I know, S always prioritizes her people. It matters to her. So I thought it must be hard for her to think in such way. At the other hand, I don't think it is a big deal because I always thought that people will just come and go, but it is not good to talk like that, right? It might not be a problem for me, but to S, it might be. Or not, she wouldn't open up to me. I have a long thought regarding this and along the way, I understand how she felt at that point. It's like missing a tiny space from your heart and you find that you yearn to fill it. Sometimes, it just you miss the memories, not the person but I believe S just tried to vent out her frustration to me ( rather than bottle up her emotions ) and just wish her friends to come back. Things just got harder friend, but here is excerpt from The Art Of Letting God, that

" By not forgiving and letting go of your past, you're not hurting the people you have a grudge against, you're only causing more pain to yourself."

Kehidupan Budak Matriks 2020/2021

Kehidupan Budak Matriks 2020/2021

Hi and Assalammualaikum. Today is 10th June, the day where the pro max batch getting their SPM2020 result. Me on the other hand, around 1 hour and 10 minutes to go, will be experiencing my first ever video call interview for my medschool admission. Truthfully speaking, it is nerve wrecking and I couldn't think straight but I need to kill my time and hence, here I am.

Oh by the way, I took Program Satu Tahun / Sistem Dua Semester under Module 1 for my matriculation program. So I just finished my studies at matriculation right before we celebrate Eid. Okay, let's jump to my first semester last year. 

For the first batch that undergo COVID19 season, we applied a system with online learning and face to face learning. The timetable was packed, but we tend to be more relax during the lecture classes as we just need to go to the Youtube, and watch the video related. We just have face to face classes, when it is for tutorial session, where there would be a lecturer that teach us. For first semester, it lasted like 2 months at the college and by then, we have to go back home ( PKP stuff ) and hence, ODL ( open and distance learning ) for the rest of semester before we back to college, just for sitting final examination (PSPM 1)

At first, I lost track with watching video and boom you enter class and the lecturer will straight away do exercises/practices. It's like " Eh, you didn't teach anything and right away ask us to do?" But actually, that's how tutorial class suppose to be. The video-watching is for you to understand the syllabus ( which are not that helpful anyway ) and at the end, it just learning by your own self. You want to understand more? You read more. You ask more. You search more. 

Yeapp, that's how I learned. For the first two months, I usually spent my times with my two besties at library. While at home, I will make sure I have the typical study environment despite space limitations and how bad the connection was. Tutorial class were conducted through Google Meet and amazingly enough, somehow my bond with other classmates were 'clicked' enough, Alhamdulillah. We had fun, getting scolded and more.

That's pretty sum up how I went through my study life at matriculation during my first semester. Second semester went the same way just like how I mentioned earlier, during the first two months as we were at college. What brought disheartened to everyone were, our holiday got shorten, our final date got bringing earlier than it is suppose to be, classes from Monday to Saturday with 8 to 6 for the sake of finishing the syllabus, we couldn't go out to go home or even outing, and basically your life is just inside the college. Bond making with your friends.

I guess that's all I should said. Seniors said, our batch is not fun at all compared to them but things turned out that way anyway, so yea. For those who don't know what you want to be yet, Matriculation/STPM/Foundation might be your place and plus it is fast track, where you do not waste 3 years for diploma taking. But whatever it is, everyone have a choice for your own life. Choose your life track wisely and don't be discourage with your choices as you are in God's hands! Don't worry and all the best :D

Life update

 Life Update

Hi assalammualaikum everyone.

It has been like 16days I stayed here at Matrikulasi and Alhamdulillah, everything is okay. I managed to overcome 'homesick' feeling but somehow broke into tears after finishing my first day classes. It was a totally overwhelming feeling and I felt so much insecure towards other people ( whom now know as my classmates ) I got to say, the title of that day was ' back it again, hi low self confidence ' uh that sum up pretty much about myself. But now alhamdulillah, I'm okay.

My roommates are another thing that I shall really feel blessful with. They are kind-hearted and that is another Alhamdulillah. Allah grant my du'a. I spent my time by myself a lot since I have no old friends here but luckily I have my cousin here, so I always went here and there with her. For now, I'm not really into my classmates yet but maybe soon? Oh btw I love it when stranger smile at me! At bathroom, at my floor level, my neighbours. oh I FEEL SO HAPPY.

Being here, everything makes me to think twice. Should I wash my clothes that I just wear like half-day? Should I go to cafe where I have to wait for half an hour at night? Should I strive myself to save my pocket money? Should I ... ( & the list goes continue )

Annnnnnnd although tak best lagi duduk sini, but ok kita akan jadikan dia best. Hahah.

Study is really a last thing I shall mention but yea, it is chaotic. When they say it is fast track, they didn't lie. It was like everyone seems catch up but me. I always stunned over the WhatsApp group conversation, saw my classmates asked this and that topic where I don't even managed to read yet. Online class lecture doesn't sound fun AT ALL, I'm not lying. What do you expect them teaching Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Mathematics through video? What worst is, they use Google Translator voice and lullaby bgm. Oh gosh.

Nonetheless, that is that. Kena harungi and percaya dekat Allah untuk perjalanan kehidupan sebagai pelajar ni kan? Hihi. Okay, bye2

College D1

College D1

[ 4 Aug 2020 ]

Started a day with stomach ache, but it was fine. Bid a farewell to all the cats and Comot seemed like behaving well when I pat him. Now that I type this, I miss every cats that are probably playing around right now at home. With a heavy load of stuff that I brought today, everyone did breathe heavily all the steps on their way to the room. My floor is on the upper level so I got to say, my breath were a lot heavier every second that passed away. I was the first one to enter the room so I chose the bed that close with windows and started to sort out my things at the place. I managed to read few pages of Heaven Sent by Norhafsah Hamid though.

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It was bit boring, waiting for the next agenda but I hope it's gonna be fine tonight. Also my body ACHED a lot. It hurts and pain lol. Everyone are busy playing with their phone, so I decided to write a blog post.

Get Into Matrikulasi

GET INTO MATRIKULASI

Assalammualaikum and Hello everyone. I pray that everyone is in a state of healthy and happy, ameen. Time flies so fast this May-to-June months and honestly, I am quite blowing away- trying to catch up few things that going to happen in my life.

Last week, I got my UPU results and it turned out that I have been offered to further my study at Matrikulasi, Perak. Alhamdulillah. And since I have started my job back on 3rd Syawal, so the process to sit and search thoroughly about Matriks is slowing down for me, compared than everyone else. I can see that some people have bought things too and that's great. I have missed the date to download my surat tawaran at the official website and that explained more why I haven't started to settle down- completing the documents. The websites will be reopened back on 22nd June, so in shaa Allah still got time.

The thoughts of meeting new people and creating a circle of new friends have made me anxious already. My friends at Melaka probably rest assured since they got each other back face to face there, but here I am hahah, a local awkward social figure landing nowhere. Hello, I'm trying to adjust myself to be more social-able and I think I am doing great slowly. Although I was bit concerned about this, I hope it won't affect me that much.

I also have thought that what if I can't study properly despite my brain is not functioning properly these few months LOL and what if I can't do it... what if I failed... and more of what if.. But nah nevermind, things will work out anyway.

I hope it is not to late to say this but Salam Aidilfitri to everyone!

Routine on RMO Days

ROUTINE ON RMO DAYS

Assalammualaikum and Hi everyone :) Salam Ramadan Al Mubarak, may Allah abundance you with His blessing insyaAllah. How your day went like? Was it good? Or you found out that it was not that productive? Chill because productive actions have its own ride either you are consistently doing it or at some other days, you just feel like to not do anything. I guess that kinda normal because that's the spice of life taste.


On my last post, I've been sharing my top korean dramas that I personally love it. CLICK HERE TO READ. But these few weeks, I have stop watching any of k-dramas since I didn't really feel my adrenaline rush anymore hahah. The concepts are basically same, so that's why I stop watching them. But maybe next few months I will continue binge watching k-drama again, especially when I am busy hahaha. Who knows? 

When I was in high school, it was always watching k-dramas vs doing homework though.  (MY SPM RESULT'S POST )

Okay so let us move on. Since we are celebrating Ramadan this month, I bet you guys have own plan to do something, especially in learning to get to know Him and Islam. For me, I try my best but I always remind myself that it is not a competition. Self help might sounds boring but as long as it feeds soul, then why not? A lot of people commit their day either through cooking for iftaar, reading their favourite books, exercising with family and even selling this and that. I am truly inspired with all the energy that they show in any platform. So for today post, I will share my occasional not-so-daily-routine for these few days and I would glad to know yours! Comment down below ;)

After sahoor, I usually didn't continue sleep. Since I am morning person, I would always fill it with activities that I love. If you guys have read this post, you will know that I actually have started journalling. Because of that, it is one of my routines every day. Or maybe I might skip two or three days but that is basically a thing that I do. Sticking the stickers and washi tapes here and there, is fun. I bet the book going to be full with cringe worthy with a lil bit healing reflections that is fun to read for the next few 7 years. It just that nowadays I haven't express my thoughts that much although many things upset me but instead, I fill the journal book with my Ramadan notes.


I also read for 10 minutes in anyone blog. I know that there are e-books available ( I also got my free e-books at google bookstore since I am purchasing Teme Abdullah new series but the delivery got delayed ) and honestly, I could not read the fiction story on screen. The touching sense is lost and I don't really enjoy read them. That's why I have subscribed to some newsletters since it is not that fiction and easy to read, although there are some heavy topics being discussed. I cannot wait to be able buying books at the shop again.

!! AATUESDAYLOVELETTER / FADHILAH WAHID NEWSLETTER / DEAR SARINA 

It has been two weeks since I learned Japanese too and alhamdulillah, I enjoyed it for first few days until I met Kanji hahaha. It is hard and self-learning for a new language is not quite effective for me but I'll try to challenge it though.

!! Rasya's post on  Japanese Language Study Starter Pack for Beginners

When I say I'm not watching korean dramas, doesn't mean I'm not watching others hahahah. I am actually a big fan of Asian shows so currently, I'm watching Thailand drama. So my days full with me speaking Siam phrases and it is legit fun for real. I successfully annoyed everyone with my own slang. Kapchaina kaa.

!! Current watch : Game Sanaeha

And maybe I will swift to Japan shows since it can help me to understand Nihongo better. If you guys love J-Movies/Dramas, please tell me which one is worthy to watch!

Laaaaaastly, my daily routine will not complete with my Quran Tadabbur session with Sister Aaisyah Altaaf. I have tried Quran Tagging and Tadabbur by my own self before this but with this kind of guide line, I think it helps me to understand the aayah better. If you want to join this session, you can simply go to Al Huda Virtual Facebook and you can join us on this online class every 9AM this Ramadan. If you missed other juz and would like to listen the recording, I believe you can DM them and ask for the records insyaAllah.

!! Facebook Link

Till then! See ya in the next post, insyaAllah. Assalammualaikum.

ps : also daily routine, playing with comot :D

K-DRAMAS THAT YOU SHOULD WATCH DURING RMO

K-DRAMAS THAT YOU SHOULD WATCH DURING RMO

Hello and Assalammualaikum everyone, are you doing well? Remember to stay healthy okay? If you are 'new' to watch Korean dramas, then this post is specially made for you! To be honest, I am not that hard core fan of Korean Dramas ( maybe i have watched 50+ something sampai habis ) but I do really enjoy it. Law, medical, police, historical, etc2, mostly they put the efforts in details. That's why I prefer to watch them than regular Malay dramas. What for sure is, I love Asian shows. I just finished watching Live Up To Your Name, Dr Heo and currently watching Yong Pal. But I think I won't continue Yong Pal because get tired with rampas2 kuasa stuff. Is there any K-dramas that you guys enjoy these days? Drop the comments! So here we go, the list of top 10 K-dramas that you guys should watch during RMO and I hope you will love it.

1. Moon Lovers [ 9/10 ]

During a total solar eclipse, a 25-year-old 21st-century woman, Go Ha-jin, is transported back in time to the Goryeo Dynasty. She wakes up in the year of 941 in the body of Hae Soo, among the royal Wang family. She initially falls in love with the gentle and warm-hearted 8th Prince Wang Wook, and later Wang So, the fearsome 4th Prince who hides his face behind a mask and is given the derogatory label of "wolf dog." As the story develops, Hae Soo finds herself unwittingly caught between the rivalry and politics among the princes over the fight for the throne.

** actually, i watched this because of the all good looking princes hahaha ( they are all my fav ) but trust me, it is one of the best historical dramas that i have ever watched T___T and all the soundtracks freaking good

2. Kill Me, Heal Me [ 9/10 ]

Cha Do Hyun is a third-generation business heir who developed dissociative identity disorder, DID (previously known as multiple personality disorder) in the aftermath of several life-threatening traumatic events. He tries to regain control over his life with the help of Oh Ri Jin, a beautiful first-year psychiatric resident who helps him secretly. Do Hyun takes control over his condition properly and monitor all his seven identities.

** got attracted to watch this drama because of the multiply personality disorder...plus ji sung's act was amazing. i am a big fan of him. i totally recommend this one

3. Live [ 9/10 ]

Live tells the story of police officers - from the lowest field cadets and patrol officers, to their superiors including corporals, captains, and more - as they form the 'Live' team at the Hongil patrol division.

** setakat tahun ni, ni jelah yang drama yang i suka. it's a good drama and real eye-opener. now i know what korean police officers actually do. although it was quite heavy for some plot due to the sensitive cases that they took on but i wont regret watching this.

4. Guardian : The Lonely and Great God | Goblin [ 8/10 ]

Kim Shin, a decorated military general from the Goryeo Dynasty is framed as a traitor and killed by his master, the young King. Years after his death, he is cursed by the almighty to stay immortal forever and becomes a goblin. The only way to put an end to his immortality is the Goblin's bride, whose aid in pulling out the sword that will culminate his painful immortality. Ji Eun-Tak is a bubbly high school student who remains cheerful and hopeful despite her tragic life. She summons the goblin by chance and their fates begin to entwine.

** you are really missing something if you haven't watch this yet. i'm not a big fan of goblin before this because it was way too overrated but i ended up watching it because sung jae was there. guuuuuud drama and guuuud cast.

5. Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo [ 9/10 ]

A coming-of-age story about a group of college athletes who are fighting for their dreams, experiencing and finding love in the process, and growing every step of the way.

** this is light drama and got to say, it is one of my favorite couple duo. cute and fun to watch. i might be dreaming of getting my own joon hyung at college soon hshshshs

6. The Liar and His Lover [ 8/10 ]

A love story about a heartbroken genius music composer Kang Han-gyul, who meets the talented singer and student Yoon So-rim, whilst he's living under a hidden identity. With her courageous honesty and beautiful singing, So-rim draws Han-gyul back to her time and time again. Along the way, the two meet obstacles as So-rim starts her career in the music industry and begins to uncover Han-gyul's lies.

** i found myself drowned into romance drama back then and realized how many good dramas were released. another light drama like saja2 suka2 suki2 tengok. because kita tahu, mende2 macam ni tak wujud T____T

7. School 2015 : Who Are You [ 9/10 ]

Go Eun-byul and Lee Eun-bi are identical twins, separated after one is adopted at the age of 5. Eun-bi lives at the Love House, an orphanage home but she was bullied at school while teachers turn a blind eye. One day, on a school field trip to Tongyeong, Eun-byul mysteriously disappears. At the same time, Eun-bi is unjustly expelled from her school before jumping off a bridge in a suicide attempt. Ten days later, the injured and amnesiac Eun-bi is mistaken for her twin, Eun-byul, and her adoptive mother takes her home to Seoul, where she starts living as Eun-byul.

** I LOVE THIS SUUU MUCH. the antagonist makes me feels to slap her non stop for real. i prefer to not remember the ending because my shipping were not ended up together sadly. 

8. Descendants of The Sun [ 10/10 ]

Yoo Si-jin is the captain of a South Korean Special Forces unit who happens to fall in love with Dr. Kang Mo-Yeon. They begin to date but end up realize how different they are. They reunite again while providing aid in a country dealing with a natural disaster and civil strife. Si-jin, as a soldier, kills to protect lives while Mo-yeon, as a doctor, honors the Hippocratic Oath and tries to save lives.

** i know everyone probably already watched this but believe me, 2nd or 3rd watch still wont disappoint your feeling hahahaah. forever my hero, big boss.

9. Doctor John [ 10/10 ]

Cha Yo-han is a genius doctor at his work but end up entered jail as he has euthanasia one of his patient. Kang Si-young is a resident of anesthesiology who works at the jail temporarily and meet Dr. Cha there. After Dr.Cha end his prisoner sentence, Dr. Kang works together with him.

** YESSS AGAIN, JISUNG. Hahaha I just love him that much. It is medical story so I watch the drama because of that but later in the story, it was revealed that Dr.Cha is CIPA patient which caught me interest the most. I love Dr.Kang's act too. YOU MUST WATCH THIS.

10. The Moon That Embraces The Sun [ 10/10 ]

Set against the backdrop of a Korean traditional palace, this fantasy drama tells the poignant love story between a king and a female shaman. There is conflict between the throne and the king tries his best to handle them.

** I know the synopsis seems like not one but it's quite hard to explain longer. Basically it just a love story but with deeper feelings as it is between a king and a shaman, who later we found out that she is very important in his life since they were young. Got to say it is one of the best historical drama that I have ever seen. From the soundtrack, line of cast and everything.... i cried very hard on one of the episodes because they got me like T_____T I WOULD SUGGEST THIS TO EVERYONE and you totally wont regret it, i believe. Such miracle do happen, to protect and to love. 

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So yes, that's it. Is there any drama that I left behind? Hahahah, do tell me okie. I'm a big fan of Romance Comedy genre but times to times, I gradually watch other genre too, except horror. Thank you and byee.

SPM 2019

SPM 2019

Hello everyone. I hope all of you stay safe and healthy despite the pandemic virus that have cropped up in our country. Make sure enough that you are following all the instructions from Malaysia Health Ministry and World Health Organisation that have been provided. Some people are battling with life and death now, so I hope everyone could do a silent plea to these patients and frontlines. And you. It's time for you to take a break in between for your own self. It's time to breath and it's time to heal. All this positivity seems like unreal right? Yes it is. I even had some unproductive days along this Restriction of Movement Orders but it's okay. Do something by taking baby steps and believe me, it was never too late. Embrace and be you. I am thinking to do my To Do List today, since we got another free 14 days. I hope it can help and organize my day better hahha

When I scrolled Instagram, Twitter and even scan-reading at the WhatsApp's status by people who I knew, these past few days, there were too many hatred spreading out and I totally sick of it but at the mean time, I understand on why they got raged. People are being irresponsible, selfish, ungrateful etc2. So yesterday, I decided to skip a bit from this issue and tried binge watching some movies and dramas. Unfortunately, it did not worked out. I could not focus and because of that, I randomly grabbed " Pelukis Jalanan " book and read it. Read, read and kept reading it till I could finished that whole book on one day. It was so good to be able to read again. I was about to continue for " Arkitek Jalanan " but little inside part of me said that I should write! Like I feel so pump out right now so I thought, dear self, at least make a proper reflect and your own anecdote of story. And that is why I am here. To talk about my SPM result and I knew by looking at the title, everyone mesti excited to know about it right? Well at least to my devoted readers, hehe.

( me and my classmates )

I thought I shall make one proper post after receiving the result right away like maybe two or three days after that but nah, I have no time and I thought that I didn't have anything to say to anyone. So I just back off and continued working. It was not a delusional moment or I was being ungrateful oki. Alhamdulillah, I am proud of myself :)

So I went back to Melaka, one day before I got my result and we were staying at my adek ngasuh place for two days and one night. Allahu, I missed them so much and when we arrived, those lil kids seems a bit timid and all that but that night, it was chaotic! They were still noisy and heart-warming like usual hehe. So on 5th, I went to school, wearing my baju kurung and got to say that I was a bit nervous? I seriously didn't expect of anything about the result because I knew how I studied before this. I was giving all the fully rights to God and tawakal about everything. When I was entering the gate, the first one who was all excited and running to me was my chemistry teacher! She was so adorable and after quick asking this and that, she immediately asking me, " Did you checked your result via online?". I smiled and said no, oh come on, tak surprise la kan? Hahaha. I lowkey enjoy the anxious feeling among all my friends ( and even my self! ) Everyone were seems like exchanging all the thrilling stories that they got to experienced on current life and their new 2020.

To shorten the story, I got *6As and 3Bs everyone.* Alhamdulillah, it's all from Allah. Those Bs are my Biology, Chemistry and Physic papers and the shocked part was my Addmath result, as I got A- for this stressing subject.

 ( this is first time i am sharing my own pic so introduce u, me and my parent hehe )

Thank you my parents, my teachers, my friends and everyone who ride along the journey I took part with. It was memorable and I believe that I could not do this with the guidance and help from all people. All those inspirational people, sama ada mati ataupun hidup, mahupun karakter semata2 ( referring to Naruto ), terima kasih untuk segalanya.

Before getting the result, rather than worry of my own feeling, I kept worry of people's saying because girl have been living with expectation of people for my whole life, with all the good and great student title who could score, they said. Tapi bila dah dapat keputusan SPM tu kan, takdela kisah mana pun hahah. I cuma lebihkan momen-momen yang ada untuk bersyukur dan gembira Tapi bila dah banyak masa untuk pikir balik ni kan, kadang-kadang ada jugak terbayang-bayang apa la cikgu2 cakap ek kat sekolah? Diorang cite apa kat adik2 ni? Hahaha. Ke takde yang kisah kut? Ke ada? Ishh rindu la cikgu2 bebel. Kah kah kah.

Cuma nak kasi satu appreciation kepada diri sendiri perihal subjek matematik tambahan tu je la. Believe or not I got E on trial and I even cried over that matter, thinking that there is no more next time. Emotion welled up inside me, but under His guidance and my hard work these past two years, so kira macam berbaloi la. Walaupun kantoi kat subjek2 sains. Dukacita sebenarnya tapi takpe, hidup kena teruskan. I mungkin tak worked hard enough? Tapi nak measure kita punya hard work, luar fitrah dah tu right? Takpe, Allah tahu semua. Dia akan bagi banyak lagi lepas ni, inshaAllah. 

As I determined enough to go studying oversea before this, it seems like the hope is faded slowly hohoho. The requirements to get the scholarship is quite hard and my SPM result did not help much. But honestly, Ariena is still Ariena. Maybe in the future, I will try hard to get the places that could offering  me one, inshaAllah. I am thinking to further my studies in medical field generally although my Bio result macam hampeh hahhah but it is okay lah, Allah has set better plan for me so I`m all good.

That`s it I guess. See ya in the next post oki, Assalammualaikum.