PU Azman

Assalammualaikum and hi

Last few days, PU Azman came to my school; giving a talk for Maal Hijrah.

To be honest, I don't know him. I don't know until the day when the teacher announced that he will come. So I asked my friend,

" Who? "

since when the teacher announced it, all the students were like clapping and ecstatic about him.

" That ustaz who kinda famous at ig. He replies the netizens with funny and pun ways. Also the winner of Program Pencetus Ummah. "

" I see. "

So, during the day he came, first thing first was of course my first impression towards him. Masha-Allah, he looked likes so pure, innocent and I could sense his 'alim' hahhaha

His content went slowly, adapted to our surrounding smthing. I was immersed, i mean WE WERE immersed in his talks like I could feel how dia boleh adapt to our surrounding and berbual like we all dah kawan lama.

I was ecstatic, and still am. All the flows he made shown his efforts to give a talk toward a low and underprivileged school; like my school. The q&a session went kinda funny. And there is behind of the story that I fail to notice of ( will tell this later )

So the next day, it was with my teacher, who is one of the person I often observe with ( i am a lil observant kind of people lol ) & I love when he throw out his realistic opinion whenever he do & the thing was, when i sat around him with some of my friends.

He asked, " Ha apa yg kau dapat semalam dari PU Azman? "

Lol of course he made me speechless again. But exactly,
" Yeah, what is the final conclusion I get from him...? "

" Ha antara tin2 kosong la ni " he replied when kitorang semua terkial2 nak giving out the best answer.

Then it just went like that. BUT THEN,

I hesitate, " Should I ask or not " few times until I finally had the courage to ask him,

" Cikgu, kenapa muka cikgu mcm tak berkenan je bila PU Azman bagi talk semalam? Mcm tak puas hati? "

" Aku bukan tak puas hati ngan dia. Aku pelik ngan kau org. "

Aku dengar, diam. Tunggu dia sambung.

" Kau penah nampak tak sebelum ni kalau penceramah dtg sekolah kita ni suruh tanya, budak2 kita ramai2 angkat tgn? Berebut nak tanya soalan? Pegang mic? Ada? "

" Um no. " I replied slowly.

" Ha itu yg aku pelik. Kau tak terfikir? Macam mana dia boleh adapt our surrounding feels like close to him? Budak2 kelas belakang, ramai yg berani angkat tangan, pegang mic, tanya. Even though soalan diorang kelaut, but they did have courage to ask. "

Yes, I fail to notice this. Aku tak perasan this thing. I observe the situation, I observe PU Azman sendiri but I didnt notice my school mates yg tiba2 berani raise up hands to ask question, subhanallah!

" -and also some of you guys wasted the time, wasted his appearance being here yesterday. You should ask something yg betul2 dekat dgn diri u guys but seramai2 nak tanya kasus lgbt. Ade kena mengena ngan kau ke? Kenapa bersungguh2 nak tahu sgt? "

He responsed this.

Thus, his words menusuk at my heart again. To be honest, me myself was not into with this lgbt things. However, the words " wasted him " is I should agree with. For my perspective, I want to ask this and that, but during that time, aku tak boleh pikir satu pun soalan yg aku selalu tanya dkt Ustaz Addien's twitter ( yg mana dia banyak tak notice my tweet )

I learn my mistakes that day and I learn something new, MashaAllah.