accusation

In the name of Allah, the Most Compassionate, the Most Merciful

Lately, I haven't got much into this over-thinking habit and there are not many thoughts running through my mind. There are single-A and Z cross and walk through, but I close the 'thoughts' in a good way. However, there is this thing as mentioned in the title that has been bothering me over and over since years ago. You know that time when someone says something false or untruth about you but you have no intention, to tell the truth....anymore? I always encounter this. I bet you too. We always try to explain the truth but at the end, we feel like to not do anymore. 

People will believe what they want to believe.

Even people surround me also don't know the real feelings of me. Communication is a key indeed but when one is too tired to explain, I guess that is that.

 Communication is a two-way method though. Sometimes, I couldn't bear it alone. The statements are too much and it hurts. The struggle that I faced is often to be misinterpreted. Despite how much we try to understand their so-called points of view, we ended up getting hurt. Refusing over and over about some accusation regardless it is false or true could be tired sometime. I wonder how our great man, Rasulullah SAW have done this before. 

I came across and read over one seerah article that is interesting to be sharing with.

‘Â’isha (RA) reported that she once asked the Prophet ﷺ, “Have you encountered a day harder than the Day of Uhud?” The Prophet ﷺ said,

Your tribe has abused me much, and the worst was the day of ‘Aqaba when I presented myself to ‘Abd Yalâyl b. ‘Abd Kulâl, and he did not respond to what I sought. I departed, overwhelmed with grief, and I could not relax until I found myself at a tree where I lifted my head towards the sky to see a cloud shading me. I looked up and saw Gabriel in it. He called out to me, saying, ‘Allah has heard your people’s saying to you and how they have replied, and Allah has sent the Angel of the Mountains to you that you may order him to do whatever you wish to these people.’ The Angel of the Mountains greeted me and said, ‘O Muhammad, order what you wish, and if you like, I will let the two mountains fall upon them.’ I said, ‘No; rather, I hope that Allah will bring from their descendants people who will worship Allah alone without associating partners with Him.’

I learned that Rasulullah SAW, himself was upset over the accusation that people made and the way they replied to his dakwah. But Rasulullah SAW didn't mad at that particular moment but instead, take a moment to calm down himself. Even after Allah has tried to offer help to him, he made a du'a instead. Du'a, du'a, du'a and du'a to his beloved ummah. I pray that I won't get disappointed that much about what and how people talk to me plus behaving like the sunnah always.

ps : i am going to send my reply of nini's letter soon. please wait for me okiee nini. at least this is a least productive thing i can do for december. life is so routine these days with no roller coaster ride hahaha. 2020, i cannot wait for u!