UPU Result.

UPU result.

(Diary entry)

Receiving news that I got accepted into medical school was a really a-weird-mix-feeling one. Of course, it is beyond my own expectation but still, syukur Alhamdulillah upon the chance that Allah S.W.T gives. This is maybe prior of a convince feeling of mine that I won't be accepted, after finishing all the interview sessions last month. (Look how small my thoughts are compared to what Allah has decided for me.)

I remember I finished my interview-weeks first and just then, Bahagian Kemasukan Pelajar IPTA (UPU) opened its Fasa Pengemaskinian & Fasa Permohonan Baharu. So, we have been given a kinda 'second chance' to update our course list, except the one that we have been interviewed with. By that time, I would like to say that I changed the list with updated mind & new purpose for the nth time.

I told myself, " Okay so if being a doctor is not for me, I might consider this and this. This will be less stressing anyway. I think I can do this and this course. "

That was my mindset back then. Plus there is special du'a that 'following' me, these few months too.

" O Allah, indeed, You know me very well. Here, I seek guidance from You, to show me a right path for me, specifically in which journey should I head to regarding my studies after this Ya Allah. You are All Knowing, You are All Hearing. If medical field is really for me, make it ease Ya Allah. If this field can lead me to become a better person, who can contribute something for my own self, for my own country and yakni for Islam, give me a chance to become one, Ya Allah. But if this is not for me, show me which suit me the most Ya Allah. "

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After getting UPU result, that was where I began felt confused (vague but not ungrateful.) I don't know is this the answer that I am searching for… because it could be that Allah SWT answering my du'a soon, not now or maybe He will grant me in the future, or even more at hereafter. That’s what I thought again. “Is getting accepted to medical school is really the answer of my du'a?” I am happy yet overwhelming because of this matter, considering how overthinking I always be, all the time. However, I embraced the thought of "If he doesn’t think I can't do it, then He won't give. But the thing here, Allah SWT gives. And He gives perhaps because He knows I can do it."

Because of that, I started to build up my confidence again. “Chin up and think straight. Yakeen with the decision given by Allah SWT and rethink back, the purpose of you, want to become a doctor.”

It's a huge title and becoming one does bring a heavy responsibility. I might say I am not that confident, but I guess this is a test from Allah SWT too because everything happened in this dunya is a form of test, & every test have its own khayr (goodness) that I should ponder upon it. Indeed, everything revolves around us, Allah SWT has brought His bounty rahmah & hikmah too.

I understand that my heart, is having a hard time regarding this (the act of accepting my flaws and accepting my feeling as human-being) but I believe again, that He will guide me along the way if I constantly purify my heart and niyyah, insyaAllah.

What awe me more is that today, I happened to read a story of Prophet Musa A.S who get to meet Allah SWT. (Referring to Suratul Al-Qasas, ayaah number 30 till 35.) When Allah SWT asks him to go and see Pharaoh with credentials (mukjizat) that given to him, Nabi Musa A.S is concern (and fear) over some things. He immediately seeks help yakni du’a to Allah SWT regards that and because of his sincere plead, Allah SWT grant his du’a right away (where Allah SWT strengthen his arm through his brother, Prophet Harun A.S and grant them both supremacies so that bad people will not reach them.)

And I guess that is how I understand my heart and start to learn mending it. Ultimately, indeed the goal is to obtain a Qalbun Saleem (a sound heart.)

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Semoga Ariena dapat menghabiskan pengajiannya sebagai pelajar perubatan selama 5 tahun (+2 housemanship years) dengan sukses, dan seterusnya menjadi seorang doktor yang berakhlak mulia. Ameen.

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Crucial first step of understanding my heart is inspired prior reading Light For  The Lost Soul by MizzNina. May Allah grant her greatest abundance, as many as benefits that people get, coming from this book. Ameen.

Online Medical Interview 2021 - Doktor Perubatan

Online Medical Interview 2021 - Doktor Perubatan👀

Hi and Salam~! Praying everyone are in best condition, both physical and mental ya, amin.

Today I would like to share my experience, during last online interviews for my degree. I got offered from three local universities to be interviewed and the results will probably come out around mid September, 2021. I did prepared a lot in between, preparation wise like reading some articles related. Happy to say that some of the target questions came out but in fact, it doesn't help that much either because it was totally nerve wrecking from the beginning you were asked to introduce yourself ahahah.

The first one is from Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM)

After getting result of my application, I was required to fill out my information ( certificates related ) through Google form within a period they have decided. They also asked me to create and send a resume video where I need to introduce myself, why I choose medicine and why UKM.  Then, another week passed and I was required to undergo synchronous video interview, using Zoom. The funny part was, I am not very familiar with Zoom because when I was at Matriculation, we were constantly using Google Meet and thus, using Zoom was indeed hard for me lolol. Here are the questions that were asked by two panel interviewer ( man and woman ) around 15 minutes.

1. Your neighbor conceal the fact that he is a close contact of COVID-19 patient. Is it the right thing to do? Should the head of villager list down the names of those who are close contact with COVID-19 patient and tell everyone in the village?

2. As a medic student, you need to inject a patient but then you failed to do so,10 times. Your professor were mad and scolded you at that moment. Do you think it is appropriate? How you will deal with the situations, both clinical and your emotion?

That's it and I would love to remind you that the first question is in Bahasa and the second one was in English. PLUS, when I was interviewed with those questions, they did asked like tricky sub-questions to me. For example,

1. Don't you think it would invade people privacy if you say the head of village should list down the names or in oppose, what about the rights of people who need to know that their neighbours are close contact person?

2. If in your own case, how many failed trials that will make you to correct yourself? Is it 10 times like the situations? Or the moment you failed to do the first inject-- you would give up right away? 

I also got offered from Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM)

To be honest, I forgot what the first-two steps USM asked before got into video call interview so let just skip that part haha. I think... nothing much, it just I was required to fill out my contact details because later on, I was added into WhatsApp group for my session. USM used Cisco Webex for the interview and again, the day I was being interviewed, I had problem with my microphone. Till today, I don't know why it was not connected to my laptop but luckily they asked me to do video call through WhatsApp instead. Thanks to that, it was less nervous because for me it seems like a bit non-formal, using a handphone. The questions are,

1.  Introduce yourself. 

( when I said my hobby is reading, they asked me who is my favorite author. they asked me in Malay and it is very ridiculous because I've been practicing using English for my " introduce yourself " question hahah. It really depends to the interviewer nonetheless )

2. Your thoughts on those who are anti-vaccine. How you cope it if your family members are anti-vaccine. 

3. Your thoughts about contract doctors.

4. You saw your friend always being isolated alone at class. When you asked her, she told you that she is suffering from sexual abuse at home. Her mum decided to not make it big. What do you think?

Actually... they did asked MORE than I thought because from one big topic, they asked this and that. What you will do, how you're going to help, what and what and endless what. I felt like the time did run slow at the moment lol. The female doctor who interviewed me was quite scary too TT

and the last one was from Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM)

I was required to do an essay and short video during the preliminary stage. The questions are,

1. Essay : Your neighbour is a retired teacher aged 71 years old who lives with her son who has autism. She had an appointment to receive her first dose of Covid-19 vaccine last week; however she refused to be vaccinated. She believes that her son’s symptoms of autism were observed after he was vaccinated when he was young. She also advised her neighbourhood friends not to take the vaccine as reports were shown the vaccine may cause death. She believes that washing hands and wearing mask are sufficient to prevent from Covid-19 infection.

As a future medical practitioner, identify the main issue and discuss critically about this issue.

2. Video : Sebuah organisasi bukan kerajaan telah membuat strategi untuk menyediakan pelindung bayi (baby hatches) di seluruh negara di mana ibu atau orang lain dapat menyerahkan bayi mereka secara tidak diketahui. Apa pendapat anda mengenai amalan ini?

After few days, UPM shortlisted those who are accepted but I failed to be one of their candidates.

I guess that's all from me. I did learned a lot though alhamdulillah and I hope it bring insight to you. I've been enjoying reading a book lately by Ustaz Hasrizal called Erti Beragama Yang Hilang. How about you? What are you doing these days? Thank you for reading. Bye and Salam~!

The Art Of Letting God

THE ART OF LETTING GOD

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Hi and Assalammualaikum everyone. How are you guys doing? May Allah shower you with His great bless, in the name of Ar-Rahman and wash away your worries that troubles you lately. ( ps:// the du'a is inspired with cold weather that come this morning, thanks to the rain yesterday, Alhamdulillah. )

Recently, I've been reading "The Art Of Letting God" written by Mizi Wahid. I knew that this book got recommended a lot and that was why I took the initiative to ask my brother, to buy Ustaz Mizi's books for my birthday, last March. When he was willingly agree at WhatsApp, you don't know how excited I were. I giggled all day and maybe my roommates were annoyed at me tehee. ( I always favor anyone who buy or give me books. It's like you pass on a story for me to reflect and ponder of. The little happiness that rarely comes because you know how expensive books are for me. )

Although it was purchased last March, I were at the college that time and the books were delivered to my hometown. The fact that it is July and I just half-way reading it, make me think " Huhhh, book lover konon? " hahaha but trust me, I am ( or would say, try to be! ) I just find it is quite hard to read non-fiction book and the good timing just doesn't come! Right after I finished my studies too, I've been spending my times with other pending books as well. It turns out, okay June-July is for me to read time to time, solely for this book. The Art Of Letting God.

Just like how it is described at the synopsis of back hard cover, it is about how you letting go and letting God. More like for you to know on how to move on and how beautiful Allah has put the situation for you to deal it. At this current moment, I do not have any grudge to let go, so I feel like it is not the right time to read.. it's like " Hm, I'm doing good.. so I do not need the book right now. " ( lol, look how foolish I am! ) but then, I can see a lot of people having a hard time so at least, by reading this book, I could remind myself how to overcome problems in the future more rational and learn to put myself in other shoes frequently. " There's always nothing wrong at the book, it just how you take it, Ariena. "

Last few weeks, my friend whom I named as S, spoke up about her recent concern, dealing with her close friends circle but pandemic made her to think that their friendship is no longer the way it used to be. As far as I know, S always prioritizes her people. It matters to her. So I thought it must be hard for her to think in such way. At the other hand, I don't think it is a big deal because I always thought that people will just come and go, but it is not good to talk like that, right? It might not be a problem for me, but to S, it might be. Or not, she wouldn't open up to me. I have a long thought regarding this and along the way, I understand how she felt at that point. It's like missing a tiny space from your heart and you find that you yearn to fill it. Sometimes, it just you miss the memories, not the person but I believe S just tried to vent out her frustration to me ( rather than bottle up her emotions ) and just wish her friends to come back. Things just got harder friend, but here is excerpt from The Art Of Letting God, that

" By not forgiving and letting go of your past, you're not hurting the people you have a grudge against, you're only causing more pain to yourself."

Kehidupan Budak Matriks 2020/2021

Kehidupan Budak Matriks 2020/2021

Hi and Assalammualaikum. Today is 10th June, the day where the pro max batch getting their SPM2020 result. Me on the other hand, around 1 hour and 10 minutes to go, will be experiencing my first ever video call interview for my medschool admission. Truthfully speaking, it is nerve wrecking and I couldn't think straight but I need to kill my time and hence, here I am.

Oh by the way, I took Program Satu Tahun / Sistem Dua Semester under Module 1 for my matriculation program. So I just finished my studies at matriculation right before we celebrate Eid. Okay, let's jump to my first semester last year. 

For the first batch that undergo COVID19 season, we applied a system with online learning and face to face learning. The timetable was packed, but we tend to be more relax during the lecture classes as we just need to go to the Youtube, and watch the video related. We just have face to face classes, when it is for tutorial session, where there would be a lecturer that teach us. For first semester, it lasted like 2 months at the college and by then, we have to go back home ( PKP stuff ) and hence, ODL ( open and distance learning ) for the rest of semester before we back to college, just for sitting final examination (PSPM 1)

At first, I lost track with watching video and boom you enter class and the lecturer will straight away do exercises/practices. It's like " Eh, you didn't teach anything and right away ask us to do?" But actually, that's how tutorial class suppose to be. The video-watching is for you to understand the syllabus ( which are not that helpful anyway ) and at the end, it just learning by your own self. You want to understand more? You read more. You ask more. You search more. 

Yeapp, that's how I learned. For the first two months, I usually spent my times with my two besties at library. While at home, I will make sure I have the typical study environment despite space limitations and how bad the connection was. Tutorial class were conducted through Google Meet and amazingly enough, somehow my bond with other classmates were 'clicked' enough, Alhamdulillah. We had fun, getting scolded and more.

That's pretty sum up how I went through my study life at matriculation during my first semester. Second semester went the same way just like how I mentioned earlier, during the first two months as we were at college. What brought disheartened to everyone were, our holiday got shorten, our final date got bringing earlier than it is suppose to be, classes from Monday to Saturday with 8 to 6 for the sake of finishing the syllabus, we couldn't go out to go home or even outing, and basically your life is just inside the college. Bond making with your friends.

I guess that's all I should said. Seniors said, our batch is not fun at all compared to them but things turned out that way anyway, so yea. For those who don't know what you want to be yet, Matriculation/STPM/Foundation might be your place and plus it is fast track, where you do not waste 3 years for diploma taking. But whatever it is, everyone have a choice for your own life. Choose your life track wisely and don't be discourage with your choices as you are in God's hands! Don't worry and all the best :D